• When love, even lust…..

    When love, even lust, turns perfunctory,

    becoming a rote/route to trek at night

    …..or squelch in lone moments of secrecy,

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    a precious trait slowly turns dastardly.

    We refuse to see our cascading plight

    when love, even lust, turns perfunctory.

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    What is this thing; a ruse to avoid briefly

    the pain of refusal’s possible bite;

    to squelch a lone moment of secrecy?

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    And how can we grasp hope and change, be freed?

    Can logic offer words, to gain insight

    when love, even lust, turns perfunctory

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    and we lament the loss so bitterly,

    when senses dulled, only channeled for heights,

    are squelched in lone moments of secrecy.

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    Behind blind eyes, staring, the heart could see

    and feel the will falter, unsure, in fright

    when love, even lust, turned perfunctory;

    was squelched in lone moments of secrecy.

  • Abandonment

    The nest, eloquently laid of brittle twigs, holds
    a knitted cup of coffee/color pine needles mingled
    with wispy leaves and lies in the branching Y
    of Pyracantha, framed by Aprils’ white corymbs
    and shielded by the tan brick wall of my home.

    Four blue/gray air-brushed eggs glow a tinge
    of brown speckling. All has been abandoned.
    They lie, lovingly deprived of apprehensions,
    of ever wondering why; what forced their mother
    to be to flee one instinct for another.

    Perhaps, our prying eyes or the cat crouching,
    or the bullying gang of jays flaunting
    their colors; threatening hate crimes.
    Perhaps, it was only a roving eye, a perceived
    greener tree…an inexplicable unease.

  • Gardening 101: Attitude

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    On damaged knees in wet and sweet dark dirt,

    the gardener in his plot mumbles:

    his soul is singing songs of friable decay,

    of tingling life through fingers’ sifting touch.

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    He presents his face, unashamed and

    divinity anoints him priest, seer, Adam’s son

    with sacred smudge of sweat and primal dust.

    All joy is not in bloom but in seeding.

  • Moses and the Burning Bush

    An Elysian blunder was how it began;

    a careless spark spewed over heaven’s brim

    and shrubbery was ablaze in heathen/land.

    The worst part was the humorless witness:

    flock-boys were bothersome with time

    to watch and wonder and suspect more.

    Since original fire could not consume…

    merely entice and dazzle and show,

    improvisation was called for, so I AM

    assigned an asinine, too/big quest, enough

    to quiver and quail a shepherd’s lust

    to tell and brag of what he had witnessed.

    We know how that turned out.

  • toys

    Charlie and I, neighbors, would scoop foxholes

    in his back yard for our little green army men

    and with a stone on a string buried beneath

    packed dirt, a jerk exploded our grenades;

    our carefully arranged troops, unsuspecting,

    were flung into an air of sweet chaos.

    They would survive, only dirtied, to endure

    by poly/plastic toughness, more assaults;

    to rise and fall again and again without protest.

    We taught ourselves to shoot; mimic the sound:

    tongue-tip against the hard palate

    capturing breath to spit-out air

    securing an eternal arsenal;

    ammo until our throats ached.

    There were no points for body counts, no thrill

    from carnage, rivulets of blood,

    or screams of torture;

    only our boisterous narration,

    our mayhem play…….and the ecstatic scent

    of fresh scooped earth’s essence and cool

    red dirt staining raw fingertips

    as Charlie and I rapturously sweated

    another white-hot summer day away.

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    1957: Toys
    Charlie and I would scoop foxholes
    in the yard for our little green army men
    and with a rock on a string, buried beneath
    
    packed-dirt, a jerk exploded our grenades;
    our carefully arranged troops, ambushed,
    were flung into an air of sweaty chaos.
    
    They would survive, only dirtied, to endure
    by poly-plastic toughness more assaults;
    to rise and fall, again…again, without protest.
    
    We taught ourselves to shoot; mimic the sound:
    tongue-tip against hard palate, captured breath 
    spit-out rhythmically; an eternal arsenal;
    
    ammo until our throats ached from firing.
    There were no body-count points, no thrill
    of carnage, rivulets of blood, torturous screams;
    
    only boisterous narration, but most remembered:
    the ecstatic scent of fresh scooped earths essence
    and the cool, red dirt staining my raw fingertips.
    
  • The Bomb

    I remember a horrid infant;

    a creation of rabid men,

    a concoction of elements

    and process

    devoid of conscience.

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    They thought the riddle was solved:

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    a forfeit of a fraction

    for the good of the whole.

    But the whole was demeaned;

    the part was not expendable;

    they refuse to lie in silence

    as mere charred bone.

  • cold wind day

    The cold wind owned the day.

    Sniggering, sliding icicle ghost

    against my cringing neck,

    he bent me beneath his gray face;

    pale narcissus was humbled,

    hanging face in humility

    at his own audacity

    to dare flaunt with pride.

    Even the audience trees paid homage

    with chins drawn tight to chest

    with a curious tilt of head.

  • The Blissful are Pardoned

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    We walk daily; Fuzz, so ravenously alive,

    reclaiming spots he owned the day before,

    brashly stolen, claimed by a vagabond mutt.

    This was my take at first, his selfishness:

    primal greed.

    Now I see only frantic glee of knowing wafted

    through quivering nostrils scripture enshrined in golden globes

    left to entice on green/grass blades and sticks.

    He wears the mantel of joy reading ecstatic visions;

    cheeks pulsating, pulling in holograms only he can see.

    wonders I can never see….never imagine!

    Fuzz is joyous in his bliss of piss and I

    cursed with crude senses, can only cry for his joy;

    for joy is joy, not to be diminished.

    If he in canine/glee jerks our tether in disregard of me,

    I still can only smile though yanked, drug hard

    from bush to yellow spot of grass and post.

    The blissful are pardoned for thoughtlessness.

  • Ambushed

    Just an old man on a fast, healthful walk,

    I was ambushed on quiet Magnolia Street;

    my assailants, two boys, seven or eight,

    flaunted their plastic guns from their dead yard.

    One sprayed me from the hip, old-gangster style,

    the other, took careful head and chest shots,

    leering at me with deliberate calm.

    Refusing to ordain their murder play,

    the chest/clutching drama/death of feigned pain

    on a twisted face, which they demanded;

    I threw them my pain and a snubbing of

    their killing fields, a dam/you/glare as only

    an old man tired of rote/learning/games can.

    Incessant perforations of the air

    by forced/breathe bullets pursued me far past

    my escape around the corner to Oak.

    Their muddled voicings of derisive taunts

    rent the air for my refusal to die.

  • The Winds Lament

    The leaves are fallen and the wind laments

    their leaving for they mark his passage

    painting visibility on the ethereal.

    My face and ears feel a cold breath

    face/on as our directions collide

    on this sunny yet cold, empty street.

    A chime to my right sings winds intent,

    his hope to fly till the tumult of his birth

    dissipates to calm, allowing him to lie

    and rest quietly as a wreath on a grave.