an anniversary

       In front of the liquor store…

Rain darts in jagged shots across the glass

between weary swipes of squeaking, tired blades.

The defroster stifles….but I leave it;

let it fight the haze.  Maybe, it can sweat out

this demon locked to my melancholy,

my known genetic predisposition;

this twinned self–tarred skin of me, entwined tight

within and steeped in remembrance of bliss

now forsaken.  For what….a longer life

to be reminded of a craving want;

of my own sad winter of discontent?

This meninges, membranous bag for

every muscle and bone and nerve and cell,

every spark of thought, every common urge

of me is immune to time’s cheap cure.

Time is not a healer for everything.

My eyes in the rearview beseech themselves

and, stared down, blink a hard resolve….today,

to pass on the easy and drive away.

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4 responses to “an anniversary”

  1. Jeremy Nathan Marks Avatar
    Jeremy Nathan Marks

    I strongly agree with Anne. You really got to me with this:

    Time is not a healer for everything.

    My eyes in the rearview beseech themselves

    and, stared down, blink a hard resolve….today,

    to pass on the easy and drive away.

    1. Leo Avatar

      Thank you, Jeremy, so much. Life is a struggle…some people just hide theirs well. Leo

  2. Anne Avatar
    Anne

    Wow – I didn’t just read this, Leo, I felt it. This is such a powerful expression of that kind of mental torment – ‘this twinned self-tarred skin of me’ – and all the self-loathing it encompasses. I love your words, they seem to ring so true. Thank you for this writing.

    1. Leo Avatar

      Thank you for reading, Anne. I’m glad that one is behind me. I loved your poems in Tuck. We Fell was new to me and I enjoyed them both. Great work. Leo

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